[ the thing is, she would be absolutely in her right to laugh at him about that. the last time they were in this situation, kaz had punctured a man's eye out through his socket. he's not exactly a prime example of how to deal with stressful situations, but this could seem like a marginal improvement, depending on who you asked.
( he did not want to talk about what he knew, did not need any confirmation from her one way or another that the rumors were true, or based on truth. you can only kill a man so many ways. )
as she grows closer to him, kaz feels himself tense, though the pressure of her forehead on his shoulder is a. welcome one. it is, and even if that comes to a surprise to him, he doesn't so much as move. he barely breathes, even through her soft laugh. soft, warm, alive. ]
We're running out of impossibly rich monsters, actually.
[ a shoddy attempt at a somewhat joke, which is used directly to avoid the deep, heavy, angry part off him that knew this was all his fault. that there had been a slip, on his part, and that was the sole reason she was here in this situation at all.
inej probably knows, though. she has that innate ability to see directly through even the most microscopic shift in his raspy voice. ]
I will... [ still, this hits a little too close to a part of kaz he's still ashamed came up at all, and he coughs lightly to pull himself from the thoughts. ] I will consider that, next time.
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Date: 2018-09-22 02:05 pm (UTC)( he did not want to talk about what he knew, did not need any confirmation from her one way or another that the rumors were true, or based on truth. you can only kill a man so many ways. )
as she grows closer to him, kaz feels himself tense, though the pressure of her forehead on his shoulder is a. welcome one. it is, and even if that comes to a surprise to him, he doesn't so much as move. he barely breathes, even through her soft laugh. soft, warm, alive. ]
We're running out of impossibly rich monsters, actually.
[ a shoddy attempt at a somewhat joke, which is used directly to avoid the deep, heavy, angry part off him that knew this was all his fault. that there had been a slip, on his part, and that was the sole reason she was here in this situation at all.
inej probably knows, though. she has that innate ability to see directly through even the most microscopic shift in his raspy voice. ]
I will... [ still, this hits a little too close to a part of kaz he's still ashamed came up at all, and he coughs lightly to pull himself from the thoughts. ] I will consider that, next time.